My children are wild, my work is crazy, my life is overwhelming at times, but it's all mine, and I love every minute of it! I work as a Financial Aid Advisor, and am the mother to 3-year-old twin girls, Saniya and Saadia, and a 1-year-old boy, Silas. They keep my hands full, my heart over flowing, and everyone entertained! Tick tock…Tick tock…
My biological clock hasn’t ticked in almost 4 years, but there I was, minding my own business, and POW it starts banging!! I heard it loud and clear … “What’s one more?” “It would be nice!” “Go for it!!” At first I laughed it off, but I couldn’t shake the idea from my head. Is this something I really want? How would it affect my children? Does Aaron want this too? My mind was reeling, so I made a list and did the math. My head and my heart started to pound when I realized that we could afford another baby.
I allowed myself to dream, to fantasize, to imagine another little baby to hold and love and squeeze. Would it be a boy or a girl? I think a girl would fit nicely. What would I name her? Oh, the naming is the best part! Who would she look like? A mixture of all three would be nice…
I made the mistake of confessing my secret desire to a few (hundred) people, and received mixed reviews. Some people said to go for it! Others insisted that I must be crazy. Is it because I already have 3 healthy, happy children? Would I be pushing my luck to try again? Is it because my children are so young? Can’t argue with that, but I’m on a roll, so why not keep it going! Is it the twin thing? It seems like people think once you have twins you would be nuts to have another, let alone 2 more.
I will stop right here and say that I wont be having another baby. My tubes are tied and I know in my heart that our family is complete, but can someone please tell my uterus that?? I still have the urge, but I once had the urge to go jogging, and that hasn’t happened yet, so I think Im pretty safe!
I don’t know what to tell you… maybe take up a hobby, like changing newborn diapers at the hospital? All that meconium is sure to help settle your urges. :) Seriously, I think it’s pretty normal as the babies turn into people for a woman to miss that warm and helpless smallness. But remember, you just got back into your party heels! Enjoy that for awhile, too!
Comment by Megan — June 24, 2009 @ 2:51 pmGeri, you know I love you. But you’re insane, woman! lol ;)
Comment by Beckie — June 26, 2009 @ 8:04 amMom of 1, have to echo Beckie’s comment. LOL! :)
Comment by Missy — June 30, 2009 @ 9:29 am